Month of "CRASH!!!"

this hasn't been the most fun time of my college year. Although I've been up and busy throughout the whole month since the beginning of my last quarter as freshman in UCLA, my life pattern is crashing left and right. My insomnia's coming back, and it's harder for me to keep up with my classes. They have become much demanding than I anticipated, with the addition to my upper division as an electrical engineering major class. On the bright note, I've been able to get closer to my friends and I really hope that I'll be able to pull back to my normal self. However, on the downside, now I'm REALLY missing my high school friends.....sometimes I would be in class and think of how they were doing now, and would they feel the same nostalgia that I do. I really hope things will improve as time goes, but I'm not too sure......A magnet that I have says "I used to be undecisive. Now I'm not sure." hmmm....very fitting of my situation I'd say. Sometimes, I have doubts if this is the way I want to live (not my academics, heavens, I couldn't have asked for more), but with friends, network, and all. Sometimes, I think to myself, would I have been happier and satisfied if I stayed back in Toronto and went to McMaster, or U of Waterloo.......all I can say for now is that all I CAN do is to look straight forward and keep digging the same hole until I feel disgusted of myself and move on to the next spot, or until I find satisfaction.

a whole week of nothingness

After finals..........SPRING BREAK!!!!! and I did nothing. I didn't go home, I didn't go on a retreat, I didn't get to hang out with my cousins..... but I did get to watch 'the office' episodes and get some REALLY good rests... and I started planning to have a better quarter this time, preparing myself early for everything possible and even planning ahead of what activities I should join to get more out of university.... hopefully, things will go according to plan, which never does..we'll see.